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I sit here watching the world pass me by,
As I contemplate, leaving this world behind.
Please I don't want to hear another word,
All you'll do is lie.
"Don't tell anyone or you'll get daddy in trouble and you don't want that do you?"
I nodded meekly, and then played my part.
Those words he said will always and forever haunt my mind.
When I die,
I wonder if they'll say I didn't try
Or maybe they'll all just cry.
I don't want them to cry,
I want a little part of them to die too.
Does that sound really narcissistic?
Does that sound really pessimistic?
Doesn't really matter,
Not after so long.
Those bruises have come and gone,
My scars have deepened and faded.
So now as I look back on my life,
I have to admit the cons out weigh the pros.
I'll stand up,
Walking to the edge of the building,
I glance down at the world below.
Taking one last breath
"Goodbye world. I am leaving you with your pain and worries.
With you dead and dying.
With your evil and corrupt.
I am leaving you all to this sweet cesspool called life.
Good luck."
I smile and jump
Only to wake up to my abuser….
He's smiling,
And I find myself wondering why?
Why… why is this okay,
why do you tell me this is how dad's show their love,
Why do you have that wicked smile that only I can see?
As I contemplate, leaving this world behind.
Please I don't want to hear another word,
All you'll do is lie.
"Don't tell anyone or you'll get daddy in trouble and you don't want that do you?"
I nodded meekly, and then played my part.
Those words he said will always and forever haunt my mind.
When I die,
I wonder if they'll say I didn't try
Or maybe they'll all just cry.
I don't want them to cry,
I want a little part of them to die too.
Does that sound really narcissistic?
Does that sound really pessimistic?
Doesn't really matter,
Not after so long.
Those bruises have come and gone,
My scars have deepened and faded.
So now as I look back on my life,
I have to admit the cons out weigh the pros.
I'll stand up,
Walking to the edge of the building,
I glance down at the world below.
Taking one last breath
"Goodbye world. I am leaving you with your pain and worries.
With you dead and dying.
With your evil and corrupt.
I am leaving you all to this sweet cesspool called life.
Good luck."
I smile and jump
Only to wake up to my abuser….
He's smiling,
And I find myself wondering why?
Why… why is this okay,
why do you tell me this is how dad's show their love,
Why do you have that wicked smile that only I can see?
Literature
I Am.
I am the silhouetted figure standing alone in the dead yellow glow of the single street lamp's flickering, dying light. The cold wind blows the debris along the cracked street, shifting the image but not the feeling. No one will fix it. No one is even here. I stand alone keeping company to the tiny, hopeful sprouts emerging from the long jagged cracks in the ancient cement, starting their lives in the place that others have died. I stay with them, watching over them to make sure their tranquil growth is not disturbed. Neither of us have anywhere else to go, so why not stay? Every second spent is not wasted because it is spent doing something.
Literature
Jacelyn Who Never Smiles
Jacelyn who never smiles
Suffers through the endless trials
Of a rotting candyland
Crumbling to collapse like sand.
Jacelyn with skin so pale,
Never slips the slightest wail
As she watches dreams so bright
Mottle, rust, and lose their light.
Jacelyn with eyes so dim,
Who did cause your world to spin?
Who brought down their mighty hand:
A father, mother, or a friend?
Jacelyn who sheds no tears,
Why don't you vocalize your fears?
Anything just to forget
The wailing echo of regret.
Jacelyn with heart so bruised,
It hurts to know that you've been used,
Beaten, thrown upon the floor,
Broken, down into the core.
Jacelyn no soul
Literature
Schizophrenia
Since these voices appeared
My life is not the same
Why now I'm scared of myself
When they appear is a real torture for me
They tell me that nobody love me or appreciates me
They say that when I die will be the happiest day for others, because no one would have to endure my stupidity more
They say I'm all alone, no one can understand me
They tell me I'd be better off dead
They tell me they all deserve to die
They make me hurt emotionally and physically
They cause you to lose control of myself
They make me that i hate myself
They make my sanity this breaking into pieces
Every day I wake up with the hope that the voices are gone
But I also g
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Ment to be written by my eight year old self, not sure how well it worked out but I'm proud of it, it took me a while because i had to keep stopping.
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I want a little part of them to die too.
Does that sound really narcissistic?
Does that sound really pessimistic?
Doesn't really matter,
It doesn't.
Does that sound really narcissistic?
Does that sound really pessimistic?
Doesn't really matter,
It doesn't.